I've been telling myself I'm going to start updating this thing more, but that just doesn't seem to be working out.  I think me having something that at least passes for a life is partly to blame there.  A lot has been going on since the wedding.  Scott decided he wanted to be a landlord, so we (notice house I say we when it should really be he) bought some rental properties.  They needed a little fixing up and I was in charge of picking the paint colors.  I despise white walls. 

Hmm, let's see, what else...oh, I've been teaching ballet again.  Either I'm getting really old or I'm just really out of shape because there is not one centimeter of my body that doesn't hurt...but I still love  it.  I also have advanced racing school coming up soon.  That's going to be awesome.  The kids are great, it's hard to believe Caden is closing in on 5 months old.  My baby isn't going to be a baby for much longer.  He's in this stage where he likes to roll all over the place.  J is, well, she's J...she's mini-me. 

My other baby (Asha) is doing fine too.  She's here right now and she finds my typing highly amusing for some reason.  She's easy to please I guess.  Her mother is around here somewhere too...my guess would be passed out in a guest room.  There's a little shindig happening.  Scott decided to invite some people over.  No, I'm not being anti-social (shocking, isn't it?).  I was down there playing proper hostess for a while, but Ryan and I exited stage left once Scott's brother Ryston arrived witht he frat boy crowd.  I had some Gilmore Girls reruns to watch anyway.

I analyze that show way too much.  September 9th is fast approaching...season premiere time!  Tea (if you still read this thing) I watched Veronica Mars today...I must admit, it was rather good.  I could possibly get into it, but I'd need to go back and watch it from the beginning. 

There's some news about Kevin I need to rant about, but I'm tired and I don't even want to think about him right now.  I think I'm going to have a quick bath and jump in bed...maybe my husband will catch the hint and kick everybody out.

Sooooo....is anyone else excited about Fiona Apple making a much needed comeback?  I am!  Yup, that's right folks, Fiona's long awaited album Extraordinary Machine is to be released very soon.  However, as I severly lack patience, I already downloaded it.  Oh zip it, I'm going to buy it.  I love Fiona and I'm all about supporting the album properly.  Her fans fought hard for it. 

On to the random part...

In the course of watching many Gilmore Girls reruns, I realized I forgot all about a crucial conversation between Luke and Lorelai.  I lose fan points for not remembering it, usually I'm very good about remembering every little seemingly insignificant detail...and this was a critical episode too so you'd think it would stand out.  In the episode where Lorelai and Rory are dacing in the dance marathon (aka the Rory/Dean breakup episode)...Lorelai's shoe breaks and she asks Luke to fix it. When they're sitting there waiting for the glue to dry, Luke makes a point of letting her know that he would want kids if he was with the right person.  Then he asks Lorelai if she wanted more kids and she said she would if she was with the right person...then they have this moment of awkward silence.

Had I remembered that conversation, I would have had a totally different opinion of the season finale.  Now it all makes sense.  It's still a stretch, but if I keep that conversation in mind, the whole thing about Luke buying the Twickam house and yelling "what about the kids!" at Lorelai makes a lot more sense. Ok, that's all, just had to get that out...rant over.

Random stuff part deux...

I've been spending a lot more time at the dance school lately.  Today I was there and I overheard a couple of the parents talking.  The were talking about how they don't let boys call their houses for their daughters, and they don't let their kids close their bedroom doors.  I wanted to laugh, or yell at them...but I just minded my own business.  You can parent your kids however you want, it's not my place to tell you what to do...but what they're doing seems really paranoid and untrusting to me.  I could always talk to boys on the phone.  When I was in middle school my friend's mother asked my mother why she let me do that.  My mother told her we can't do a damn thing over the phone except talk, so what's the big deal?

She was right.  The kids I know who couldn't talk on the phone to members of the opposite sex, couldn't close their doors, couldn't go anywhere...those are the ones that did all the sneaking around.  That friend who's mother asked my mom why she let me talk to boys on the phone for example...she couldn't talk to boys on the phone, so she just had them meet her at the mall instead.

I love my parents for the freedom and respect they gave me.  They always said that trust was a given and it was up to me to keep it.  They gave me rope, it was up to me to either hang myself with it or tie a nice bow.  That's the approach I'm going to take with J and Caden.  If I restrict the hell out of them I'll never know if they have any sense.  I'm going to let them go, kick back, and see what they do with it. 

A couple of entries ago I mentioned some news about Kevin I need to rant about. Well, it's the kind of thing that pisses me off beyond belief so I'm just becoming calm enough to even write about it.  I'll just get straight to the point with it...

His girlfriend the hoodrat is pregnant.

Before the thought even enters anyone's mind.  No, I'm not jealous.  Kevin was just a bump in the road.  I don't give a shit about him or who he's with.  However, I do give a shit about Jacen...which is why I'm so fucking pissed about this whole situation. 

He basically hasn't done a damn thing for J since we got divorced.  He hasn't even sent one of those little piddly assed child support checks in months.  That isn't unexpected since he has all these extra expenses now.  He moved into a one bedroom apartment after we split.  A one bedroom apartment is barely enough room for a couple, it sure as hell isn't fit for five people.  Oh yes, she moved in...with her two kids, and her recently released from jail brother is staying there temporarily (supposedly) too.  So that's five people, and there's another on the way...and Kevin's the only one in the house with a job.

Why do I care?  I care because he's taking care of someone else's kids when he can't even take care of his own.  No, it's not about money.  I don't give a damn if I never see another child support check...hell, it would save me a lot of hassel if I didn't.  I care because he's playing daddy to these kids when he can't even pick up a phone to call J and say "hey how are you?"  I saw them a couple of days ago.  Him, her, the kids...and it hurts like hell that I had to keep J distracted so she wouldn't see him.

I wonder if he even thinks about her...he probably doesn't.  And there's a new baby on the way...one that will be just as much his child as J is, so I'm just counting down the days until she's completely forgotten.  I don't want her to be that bitter kids who talks about how their biological father never gave a fuck about them.  He's been a disappointment for a long time, but this...this is taking the damn cake.

So she's going to have another sibling out there.  I can't keep it from her, she needs to know...but that's not something she can know and not be hurt by.  She shouldn't have to have her heart broken so soon.  What do I say to her?  "Hey, daddy doesn't give a fuck about you, but guess what?  You're going to be a big sister to a kid you'll never have a decent relationship with?!"  I would love for this to be a civil situation, but they're both dumbasses.  He can't be trusted, and she's the type of chick who would mistreat my child just to fuck with me. 

You'd think I'd be parlyzed by now considering all the times I've been stabbed in the damn back.  He was dead set on making me feel every bit of pain he claims I caused him...well somebody give the man a gold star or something because his mission is definitely accomplished.

Ha, and Keane's We Might as Well Be Strangers just started playing.  How appropriate is that?

I don't know your face, no more
Or feel the touch, that I adore
I don't know your face, no more
It's just a place, I'm looking for

(Chorus 1)
We might as well be strangers, in another town
We might as well be living, in a different world
We might as well
We might as well
We might as well

I don't know your thoughts these days
We're strangers in, an empty space
I don't understand your heart
It's easier, to be apart

(Chorus 2)
We might as well be strangers, in another town
We might as well be living, in another town
We might as well
We might as well
We might as well, be strangers - be strangers

For all I know of you know of you now
For all I know of you know of you now
For all I know of you know of you now
For all I know

After much cursing and tantrum throwing, I have finally seen the season 6 premiere of Gilmore Girls (thank you BitTorrent).  I've got to say, I'm not nearly as disappointed as I thought  I would be.  Sure, it wasn't the greatest episode ever, but to echo Tea's sentiments...it's hard to live up to the massive hype created by such an awesome finale.  Luke and Lorelai both have great hair this season...and I'm glad to see Lorelai's fashion sense is still as impeccable as ever (and it seems to be rubbing off on Luke, that blue shirt was great). 

I know this engagement thing can't last, it can't go on without a hitch...but I do love those two together.  I love how he is with her.  Remember the episode where they were in the limo coming back from Lorelai's magazine article party and he was just absentmindedly rubbing her leg?  That's what I'm talking about.  Through the entire history of this show, Luke has never been that touchy-feely kind of guy...until Lorelai.  He was never like that with Nicole. 

"We should drink Zima and have sex every single night." - Lorelai to Luke 

Ok, on to the necessary stuff...

This lack of interaction between Lorelai and Rory is weird.  It changes the whole flow of the show.  The usually fast-paced witty dialogue just isn't there. It's necessary though, and I like how Lorelai is handling it (for now).  She's staying out of it and I think Rory is starting to see how much she really needs Lorelai...and I so totally LOVE the scene when she barges into Richard and Emily's bedroom and drops all Rory's crap.

Requisite Rory and Logan crap...

Logan has been growing on me lately.  I still don't love him, but he's actually tolerable now.  That relationship is going downhill fast though.  He doesn't seem to happy about Rory's decision to take time off from school.  Plus I hear Jess is coming back (and does anyone else find the fact that Alexis Bledel and Milo Ventimiglia are dating on real life slightly disturbing?).  Seeing as Jared Padelecki has his own show now, I guess that's the end of Dean...until that crap ass show gets cancelled anyway.  Where the hell was Lane?   

I've said it before and I'll continue saying it until it actually happens...give Lauren Graham a damn Emmy already!